your time will come.

confessions.

Thu, 17 Sep 2009 02:20:12 GMT

this ain't lust, i know this is love, but if i tell the world i'll never say enough because it was not said to you, and thats exactly what i need to do. manage me, i'm a mess. turn a page, i'm a book, half unread. well i always said don't mind me, but your love always seems to find me. it's always creeping up behind me. he's a brick and i'm drowning slowly. remember those walls i built ? well baby they're tumbling down. they didn't even put up a fight, they didn't even make a sound. i found a way to let you in, but i never really had a doubt. ever since i've known i've wanted to tell you that i've decided we're the next best thing to bonnie and clyde. whatever we want, we'll do everything. like a river meets the sea, stronger than it's ever been. we've come so far since that day. and i thought i loved you then. i feel very passionate about italian food, in fact, i'm in love with italian food. i'm not sure what the trouble was that started all of this. the reasons all have run away, but the feelings never did. please, i'll be strong. i've been finding you hard to resist. so show me what i'm looking for. i am trying not to tell you, but i want to. i'm scared of what you'll say. so i'm hiding what i'm feeling. but i'm tired of holding this inside my head. this is for the record, because i've been holding back too long. if the silence takes you, then i hope it takes me too. some things we don't talk about. would rather do without, and just hold a smile. falling in and out of love, ashamed yet proud of, together all the while. there are certain people you just keep coming back to, he is right in front of you. could you whipser in my ear the things you want to feel ? i'd give you anything to feel it coming. well i've been lost and i need direction, i could use a little love protection. what do you say baby ? come to my defence. blue would still be blue, but things would be easier with you. i swear to god this mix could sink the sun, but it was you i was thinking of. and i've got spun, it appears you're spun as well. it happens when you're paying attention. well this could take all year, but when it's quiet, does he hear me ? adjacent to the center of the storm. and i'm thinking i'd prefer not to be rescued. she can't fall if you're not there to catch her. i tried my best to be guarded, but i'm an open book instead. i am here still waiting, though i still have my doubts. i am damaged at best, like you've already figured out. and under the gun, you're like the only one, i just can't decide what i'm running from. you make the darkness disappear, i feel found when you stand near. i know where i am when you are here. my way becomes so clear. everyones around, no words are coming now. and i can't find my breath, can we just say the rest with no sound ? and i do want you know i hold you up above everyone. and i do want you know i think you'd be good to me, and i'd be so good to you. i touch you once, i touch you twice. i won't let go at any price. i need you now like i needed you then, you always said we'd still be friends someday. i've gone too long living like i'm not alive, so i'm gonna start over tonight, beginning with you and i. pedal to the floor, thinking of you more, gotta get us to the shore. california here we come, right back where we started from. if your lost, you can look and you will find me, time after time. just everyday people, searching for something we've already found. all because of you i believe in angels, not the kind with wings, no not the kind with halos. the kind that bring you hope when home becomes a strange place. i'll follow your voice, all you have to do is shout it out. are we getting closer or are we just getting more lost ? i'll show you mine if you show me yours first. lets compare scars, i'll tell whose is worse. let's unwrite these pages and replace them with our own words. see the months, they don't matter. its the days i can't take. when the hours move to minutes, and i'm seconds away. just ask the question, come untie the knot. say you won't care. if you could see that i'm the one who understands you, i've been here all along. so why can't you see ? he stands there, then walks away. my god if i could only say; i'm holding every breath for you. he'd never tell you, but he can play guitar. i think he can see through everything but my heart. first thought when i wake up, is my god he's beautiful. so i put on my makeup, and pray for a miracle. i'm still unsure how you've done this, but here you are. you're on your way into my heart, if you don't start slowing down. i saw it coming from the start, but i wonder. jack will you call me if you're able ? i've got your phone number written in the back of my bible.

is this in my head ? i don't know what to think.

Sat, 02 May 2009 23:11:21 GMT

i need help, advice, assistance, etc.
i've liked my best friend for about three months.
last night, we were both at our school dance.
we danced all night, and i was pretty sure he liked me too.
during the last dance of the night, i decided to tell him.
i asked him if he liked me, and he said kinda.
was this a mistake ? what should i do now ?
most important, will our friendship be ruined ?

rather waste my time with you.

Thu, 23 Apr 2009 23:59:38 GMT

random thoughts:

- you're over it , over me.
- and you didnt mean to love me back, but you did.
- i'll die if i dont get a chance to make this just right.
- im sorry, but i cant forget about the way i feel everytime you're here.
- she laid her heart and soul right in your hands, and you stole her every dream and crushed her plans.
- all around you people walking into hearts, and voices talking, looking for and finding... nothing.
- your voice was the soundtrack of my summer, do you know you're unlike any other.
- and i, i wanna be your lover, i wanna be your man, i want you to understand.
- music is the only thing that makes sense anymore.
- but theres only one truth about forever that really matters, and thats it's happening. now... now... now.

if me and seth cohen went to a costume party as batman and robin, i'd be robin, because thats how much he means to me.

Thu, 23 Apr 2009 23:14:21 GMT

wow, i havent been on here in forever.
so hello again, livejournal buddies !

Boys.

Mon, 11 Jun 2007 02:25:05 GMT

Boys are stupid, yet we always fall for them. A crush just ends up in heartbreak. I wish there was a guy that could prove that they're not all the same. I like a guy, but he doesn't like me. There's no use, we practically live in different worlds. Well metaphorically. He's in my guitar class. Lets call him Chuck. But he's a skater and I'm just... me. No guys ever like me I'm too plain. Another guy in my guitar class says that Chuck likes me. But what does he know? HELP!

Song of the week!

Mon, 11 Jun 2007 02:20:18 GMT

Gah. I haven't been on in forever... okay three days. My song of the week is... Tim McGraw by Taylor Swift! I usually don't like country but I love this song. Heres the video: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TRR8unmfxGc

Enjoy,
Maddie

Song of the week!

Mon, 04 Jun 2007 22:42:00 GMT

I think most of you missed this, since I put it up Saturday and still no comments. Oh well. Once again.... my song of the week is......... She Will Be Loved! Redone on Idol by Blake Lewis! I now, I have a bit of an obsession lately, but it will stop eventually I promise. Anywho heres the vid: http://youtube.com/watch?v=jgrfSreZVv4&mode=related&search=

SONG OF THE WEEK!

Sat, 02 Jun 2007 17:14:13 GMT

Alright... This weeks been rough. I had Outdoor Ed and had to put up with all the bitchy girls in my cabin, I ruined my favourite capris and bruised my tailbone. But whatever. This song makes me forget about it. It so beautiful! My song of the week is.... She Will Be Loved by Blake Lewis. It's really pretty when he sings it, perfect for his voice. Yepp I'm obsessed.

Video: http://youtube.com/watch?v=f62_mMqPRKI

SONG OF THE WEEK!

Wed, 30 May 2007 01:39:50 GMT

Late once again... sorry girls. Well my song of the week is..... You Give Love A Bad Name covered by Blake Lewis! I know I havent really been upfront about my Blake obsession, but I have one. :P Well heres the vid.

Enjoy his adorableness, uniqueness and song. He was on American Idol if your wondering.

http://youtube.com/watch?v=6mZeMCtsojs

SONG OF THE WEEK!

Tue, 22 May 2007 21:52:22 GMT

Hellllllooooo all! Sorry this is kinda late, since I usually do this on Sundays, but I was too busy having a Spiderman marathon with my friends. Okkkkay. Here we go.... the song of the week is.... Never Again by kelly Clarkson!!!!! My reason is because its just plain awesome and pretty much explains me dumping my BF cause he cheated on me.... yepp. Wellll, heres the video.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=A45C4XKllYQ

Enjoy plotting against your ex! :)

Sincerely,

ME! (Maddie if you didn't know that)

Mon, 14 May 2007 02:28:16 GMT

Name: Madi
Age: 12
Favourite Subject at Hogwarts: Charms because I think it would be fun to learn a lot of different spells.
How do you spend your leisure time at Hogwarts?: Quidditch and hanging with my friends in the common room because Quidditch seems fun and hanging out is fun too.
If you could store one memory in a Pensieve, what would it be? My future wedding because thats one of the most important days of your life.
If you were to face a boggart, what would it turn into?: A giant spider because I'm just as scared as Ron.
What would you see in the Mirror of Erised?: Me with my true love because thats all I ever dream about.
What advice would you give to a younger version of yourself? Even when things get bad, keep positive. it will all work out in the end. Because my parents got divorced and I was a mess.
Would you have put your name in the Goblet of Fire?: No, because although I like adrenaline I would be WAY too scared.
Harry Potter: Hero, Attention-Seeker, or Normal Kid in a Bad Situation? And Why? A hero, but also a normal kid in a bad situation because having the wole world know your name and praising you would be really overwhelming.
Voldemort: Evil, Genius, or just plain Misunderstood? And why? Just plain evil. Because there is NO reason to torture innocent people.
Under what circumstances would you use an Unforgivable Curse?: Life threatening situations. Becuase I would not wanna go to Azkaban.
What single quality goes the furthest in defining who you are?: I have a good personality because I'm nice but I don't let people push me around?
What makes a person respectable?: Kindness, yet also being able to stick up for themselves. Because being mean is well, mean and being kind but letting people walk all over you isn't a good thing.
If you had to choose between your family, your friends, and your own beliefs, what would you do? Uhm. Can I have them all? I would probably risk my own life trying to save everyone. I love my friends and my family both.
What do you look for in a friend? : Honest, reliable, trustworthy, kind, and easy-going.
Put the following words in order of importance to you: Duty, Family, Friendship, Honor, Justice, Power, Tradition: Friendship, family, justice, duty, honor, tradition, power.
If you could have either a well paid easy job that did not task you mentally, or a lower paying job which gave you the freedom to pursue your interests, which would you choose?A lower paying job because if you don't love your job then I think I would go crazy with boredom.
What qualities do you possess from each of the four houses?: Uhm from Gryffindor I am friendly, loyal, social intuative (is that a word?), and stubborn. From Hufflepuff I am kind, hardworking, loyal, caring, stubborn, friendly sensitive, intiuative, and honest. From Ravenclaw I am intelligent, talented, mature, witty, clever, good at music, good at school and have a wide vocabulary. From Slytherin I am intelligent, sarcastic, and protective.
If you could change one thing about yourself what would it be?: My harshness. Because I can sometimes be too honest.
If you were an animagus, what would you turn into? (Assuming that the animal reflects the person, it is not chosen.): A dog probably. Because I am loyal, friendly, protective of those I love, social and intelligent.
In which house do you think you belong, and why?: I think I belong in Hufflepuff because I posses most of the qualities.
How did you find us? If it was from a post say where and who posted it.: I searched 'hogwarts sorting' on the LJ search.

SONG OF THE WEEK!

Sun, 13 May 2007 17:30:53 GMT

Hello all and happy mothers day! My song of the week is..... one second I'm looking on my iTunes. Lol. Okay, my song of the week is..... Walking On Sunshine by Me First And the Gimme Gimmes. You probably don't know who they are but they are a cover band. I think they did an awesome job of this song, and it is exactly the way im feeling right now. So yeah check it out: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7O9bqAwOhNw.

P.S. You can ignore the video. Me First And The Gimme Gimmes don't actually make music videos. Somebody else made it. You can just listen to the song.

SONG OF THE WEEK!

Sun, 06 May 2007 22:50:21 GMT

Here it is.... its Swing Swing by the All American Rejects. I used to love this song, then I heard someone play it at my guitar concert and remembered how much I loved it. And once again, it's inspired by a guy. And the guy I like loves this song too. So yeah. And at the guitar concert he was singing along and so was I and it was magical. Lol. It wasn't. It also describes whats happening, because my current boyfriend never talks to me so I no longer enjoy his company, and I'm breaking up with him. I might also ask the guy I like out because my other guy friend says he likes me. Okay heres the video: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qklm1Fxns24

Song Of The Week!

Tue, 01 May 2007 21:54:18 GMT

Hey guys, I got this idea from my friend get_out_alive24 :D My song of the week is....... Invincible by Crossfade! It's an excellent song and really describes how I'm feeling about a certain person of the male species right now. XD Anyways, thanks for reading my first song of the week post! Check out the video HERE: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DDBTGFdJp20 sorry its so low quality i couldnt find anything else. :D ENJOY!!!!!!!!!!!

Mon, 23 Apr 2007 21:57:11 GMT

wowzers! they got that much right!

A mix in the making....

Thu, 19 Apr 2007 22:37:06 GMT

well making a twilight mix and jsut posted some songs on here

The Rest Of My Life - Less Than Jake

Kryptonite - Three Doors Down

Time Stands Still - All-American Rejects

Your Guardian Angel - Red Jumpsuit Apparatus

I Miss You - Blink 182

have to go more soon

well now im adding more!

Memory - Sugarcult

Forever - Papa Roach

Breathe - Breaking Benjamin

I Don't Wanna Miss A Thing - Aerosmith

My Paper Heart - All American Rejects

In My Head - Anna Nalick

Invincible - Crossfade

Over My Head - The Fray

Better Than Me - Hinder

Goodbye My Lover - James Blunt

Pain - Jimmy Eat World

When You Were Young - The Killers

You And Me - Lifehouse

Now That You Are Leaving - Not By Choice

Be My Escape - Relient K

Must Have Done Something Right - Relient K

Who I Am Hates Who I've Been - Relient K

Hands Open - Snow Patrol

Open Your Eyes - Snow Patrol

These Walls - Teddy Geiger

Breathing - Yellowcard

Only One - Yellowcard

this might work...

Thu, 19 Apr 2007 22:29:23 GMT

oaky well im technologically challenged and i tried HTML but it didnt work! imagine that! well okay i was Hermionie Granger on my Harry Potter Alter Ego test!

Tue, 10 Apr 2007 14:31:27 GMT

Name: (real name if possible) Madison
Nicknames:Shorty, because i'm short and MP3 because thats my initials and my favourite letter and I love music.
What is the meaning/significance behind your LiveJournal username?:It's kinda Twilight because "Forever is all I'm asking for." and it just is cool to me.
Age:13
Gender:Female
Birthday: July 19
Where did you hear about twilight rating? From a livejournal buddy.

Hobbies: Playing guitar, swimming, basketball, hanging with friends, reading, listening to music.
Talents: Playing guitar, singing, school, reading, swimming.
Likes: Chocolate, Twilight, polar bears, hedgehogs, ferrets, Hedley (a band), All-American Rejects, music, guitars, protecting my friends and family.
Dislikes: Black licorice, books about horses, really immature people, bossy people, braggers, smokers, the colour pink.
Strong Points: I don't let anybody tell me what to do, I make friends easily, outgoing mostly, easygoing. I don't get into fads unless i actually like them. Peer pressure doesn't bother me, because i wont do something if i dont wanna.
Weak Points: I can be too stubborn or opinionated and it can get me in trouble. I can be shy around certain people.

Optimistic or Pessimistic?: Depends on the day, but usually in the middle.
Energetic or Calm?: Depends on the day, but usually energetic, unless its Monday.
Impulsive or Think Things Through?: I usually look before I leap.
Outgoing or Shy?: Outgoing usually.
Mature or Immature?: Mature but can be immature if the time calls for it.
Leader or Follower?: I don't like being the leader or the follower, but I usually end up being the leader.

Favorite Color: Lime green and bright blue.
Favorite Season: Summer! Bring on the heat!
Favorite Food: Chocolate, any kind of pasta, movie theatre popcorn, and cucumbers
Favorite Animal: Polar bears, hedgehogs, ferrets.
Favorite Musical Artist(s): Hedley, All American Rejects, Relient K, Less Than Jake, Yellowcard
Favorite Book(s): Twilight/New Moon, Meg Cabot books, Lois Lowery books, Harry Potter, The Sisterhood Of The Traveling Pants.
Favorite Movie(s): The Covenant, Grease, Mean Girls, School Of Rock, Wizard of Oz
Favorite TV show(s): Friends, Video On Trial, Beauty and the Geek, America's Next Top Model.

Favorite Twilight/New Moon character: That is NOT a fair question! But I guess Edward, Alice, Bella, Emmett and Jacob.
Least Favorite Twilight/New Moon character: Um, Mike Newton I guess because he won't give up on his huge crush on Bella when Bella does not like him.
Favorite Twilight/New Moon quote: "Kryptonite doesn't bother me either." and the whole moonless night thing from New Moon.
Twilight or New Moon?: Twilight
Edward or Jacob?: You people are SO mean! But I guess... Edward.
If you had a choice, would you choose to be a vampire, werewolf, or human? Can I be a human that lives forever? JK I guess a vampire.

Anything else?: Hmmm... I don't think so.
Pictures (optional, but recommended): Uh I don't have any. People say I look a little bit like mandy Moore though :D

Favourite twilight Quotes

Sat, 07 Apr 2007 17:29:00 GMT

You really shouldn’t do that to people. It’s hardly fair.”
“Do what?”
“Dazzle them like that-she’s probably hyperventilating in the kitchen right now.”
“Oh come on. You have to know the effect you have on people.”
“I dazzle people?”
“You haven’t noticed? Do you think everybody gets their way so easily?”
“Do I dazzle you?”
“Frequently.”

"And then," he whispered, "as you were sleeping, you said my name. You spoke so clearly, at first I thought you'd woken. But you rolled over restlessly and mumbled my name once more and sighed. The feeling that coursed through me then was unnerving, staggering. And I knew I couldn't ignore you any longer."
He was silent for a moment, probably listenning to the sudden uneven pounding of my heart.
Bella

“How do you do that?”
“Do what?”
“Appear out of thin air.”
“Bella, it’s not my fault if you are extremely unobservant.”
Bella and Edward | p. 81

“But can your truck make it there on one tank of gas?”
“I don’t see how that is any of your business.” Stupid, shiny Volvo owner.
“The wasting of finite resources is everyone’s business.”
Edward and Bella (talking about going to Seattle) | p. 83

“Please tell me just one little theory.”
“Um, well, bitten by a radioactive spider?”
“That’s not very creative.”
“I’m sorry, that’s all I’ve got.”
“You’re not even close.”
“No spiders?”
“Nope.”
“And no radioactivity?”
“None.”
“Dang.”
“Kryptonite doesn’t bother me, either.”
Edward and Bella (about theories of what Edward is) | p. 92

Stupid, unreliable vampire.
Bella (missing Edward and seeing a silver Volvo) | p. 156

About three things I was absolutely positive. First, Edward was a vampire. Second, there was a part of him-and I didn’t know how potent that part might be-that thirsted for my blood. And third, I was unconditionally and irrevocably in love with him.
Bella | p. 195

“So what you’re saying is, I’m your brand of heroine?”
“Yes, you’re exactly my brand of heroine.”
Bella and Edward (about his addiction towards her) | p. 267-268

“And so the lion fell in love with the lamb.”
“What a stupid lamb.”
“What a sick, masochistic lion.”
Bella and Edward (about their love) | p. 274

“Are you still faint from the run? Or was it my kissing expertise?”
Edward (to Bella/about her not being completely balanced yet) | p. 283

“Maybe you should let me drive.”
“Are you insane?”
“I can drive better than you on your best days.”
“Besides, friends don’t let friends drive drunk.”
“Drunk?”
”You’re intoxicated by my very presence.”
Edward and Bella (about why he wants do drive) | p. 284

He tilted his head slowly and touched his cool lips to mine for the second time, very carefully, parting them slightly.
And then I collapsed.
“Bella?”
“You…made…me…faint.”
“What am I going to do with you? Yesterday I kiss you, and you attack me! Today you pass out on me!”
Edward and Bella (after Bella faints from the kiss) | p. 319

so many more. maybe i'll add more later. until then Toodles!

First Songfic

Sat, 07 Apr 2007 14:36:40 GMT

Kay this is my first attempt at a songfic. I am aware of the chances of it sucking are extremely high. Please read and response and tell me how to get better! Okay, here we go... (oh and its Bella and Edwards point of view, so thats whwat the B's and E's are for :D)
Spoilers: New Moon

Song: Time Stands Still by The All-American Rejects

I knew what he was about to say, I could feel it.

Him and her
Life is turned

B: "Bella," he said in a voice as stone cold as his body. "I don't want you to come with me. You're not good for me"

The day I knew you would leave
I can barely breathe

B: Then it hit me. I had always known this would happen. He had no idea how well I knew that I wasn't good enough for him

Can you hear me scream?

B: Then, he left, taking my heart with him and leaving a ghastly hole in my chest.

Thrown in all directions
You epitome of perfection

B: "He's gone." was all I could murmer when Charlie found me abandoned in the forest.

She's lost her will
(She's lost her will)
Time is standing still

B: From then on, I wouldn't do anything that reminded me of him.

He walks her home
Now he walks alone

E: I felt horrible for what I did, but what else could've I done? If I stayed she would be in more danger than ever.

The days they turn into years
The eyes they drown in tears

E: I could hardly stand it, feeling so alone. While staring out at the setting sun I remembered the time in the meadow.

Can you hear me scream?
Thrown in all directions
You epitome of perfection

E: Her smile, her laugh, the way she smelled in the rain. They all came rushing back to me now. I would have to live with the memory of hurting her for eternity.

She's lost her will
(She's lost her will)
Time is standing still
The way we are
The way we were
(It's just a shadow of what's wrong)

B: A zombie. Thats exactly what I was. I tried to act normal for Charlie, but i could see that it wasn't working.

The time with you
The time is stirred
(I love you for so long)

B: My friends were concerned, but eventually they stopped calling.

The hearts they turn
They turn away
(She says to go, please don't you cry)

B: All was lost. The truest of true loves. Would I ever get over him?

Love lost was found
Night turns to day

E: Then I got the call. It was Rosalie. The only words I heard were "Bella jumped off a cliff.".

Thrown in all directions
You epitome of perfection
She's lost her will
Time is standing still

E: I couldn't believe it. I tossed my phone in a garbage can and sped to the airport.

Thrown in all directions
You epitome of perfection
She's lost her will
(She's lost her will)
Time is standing still
Time is standing still

E: I stepped off the plane with only one thing on my mind. Seeing her beautiful face again.